Filed under: I have trust issues. I don’t trust people easily and sometimes I find it difficult to open up to certain people. As weird as it sounds, it’s not in my nature to trust (many) people.
People at my school like to leave their laptops and books laying around in the library. Personally, I wouldn’t do that. I don’t trust other students not to steal. In fact, there have been reports of stolen items from the library. People also like to leave the doors to their dorms and apartments unlocked. Seriously, who does that? My roommate and I lock our room practically all the time. We don’t trust people not to come in when they’re not supposed to. I know of people who open other people’s rooms when they’re not in it, just to see what the room looks like.
Last entry, I mentioned that I got back together with Alex. Currently, I am very happy with him and he is slowly changing back into the guy I fell in love with. However, I still don’t trust him to the extent I did before. Before, I never opened up so much to a guy before. I never trusted a guy so much. I never told a guy practically everything about me. I never done a lot of things that I did with or for him. Now, since our break up a few weeks ago, I feel like things aren’t the same and they aren’t. He’s afraid I might leave him one day for what he did. I don’t trust him not to break my heart again; I really don’t. I do trust that he will try and I do trust that we might possibly make it. However, I’m not looking too much into the future as I used to and I really think that’s a good thing. However, I really do want to trust him to that extent again.
Plug: Simply Precious
